I am soooooo ready to go. My desk at work is all clear, my stuff is packed, i just keep going around in circles waiting....my mind racing. The last days are always the hardest for me...i can't stand waiting. It's highly possible i am the most impatient person on the planet right now, a creature of instant gratification if you will. Leaving them is worse. i don't let them come into the airport because i cry. it's a mess. I worry it will be the last time i see them.This morning was rough. I am exceptionally blessed to still have five of the most amazing women in my life who i have known since i was 13/14 years old. We all went to an international boarding school together and in many ways i think of them each as my sisters and not as girlfriends. This morning, we got an email from one of them that she was rushing to the airport to fly half way around the world because her mother was passing away. My heart wrenched out of my chest and I made my own mama call me from Israel. I wanted her prayers for Amelia and her mother and also the sound of her voice.
This is how it is for all 6 of us. If anything happened we each be the one at the airport scrambling to fly over oceans and continents to where our families are. We have all chosen lives apart from many of those we wish to be closest to--including each other. We would each be relying on the strength of the others to get us through what will no doubt be the longest flight of our lives.
So, today i bide my time with my thoughts firmly wrapped around Shmeels, for her protection and that she makes it in time. My mama is praying for hers at the Holy Shrines of our Faith. And in just a few short hours, I, too, can lend my prayers in those sacred places. Where there is love...there is always time.
P.S. today we added losing parents to the list of life experiences we have shared....May Mama Samuel's soul rest in peace.
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